I'm definitely starting to feel a change in me. it's weird, but I like it, & imma just go with it.
change— or should I say, evolution ('cause there's definitely a difference)— is a beautiful experience. just gotta make sure that when you're learning to hold your head high, you keep your feet on the ground.
- I.E.
i always want to have conversations at the most inconvenient times. like now. at 12:40 in the morning when all my friends are sleep. maybe I should invest in a boyfriend.. — wait, no no no, there's no time for that.
welp, guess I'll just sit here and stare at these glow in the dark stars on the ceiling. fuck man, I really need a tv in this room.
· Missy Elliot link
· Kryptonite video
· Mass Appeal love
· Over 100K plays on “Miine”
· Over 100k plays on “AfterParty”
· “Caterpillar” EP
· “Cold” video
· #CaterpillarTakeover at SXSW
· #Caterpillar USBs (genius)
· Linked with Sway
· Karen Civil love
· XXL love
· Relocated back to Cali from NY
· NuSoul/Ill-Society show
· Sangria Sundays
· “Oakland” song
· Oakland tour
· Soulection x BeStreet show
· Heiro Day with Daghe
· Relocated to Oakland
· #CaterpillarChallenege
· Pandora Station
· Apple Music Station
· “Oakland” video
· Cozy Mag Show
· Distribution deal with EMPIRE
· Came back home to Los Angeles, CA
some accomplishments I couldn't post, of course. wouldn't wanna ruin the surprise. [: nah, it was a good year though. a few lows for sure, but all in all, we did well. want to make sure next year's list is 3x as long.
- I.E.
this fascinates me. watch the first 15 minutes. hella metaphorical.
& life is beautiful.
all I'll say is, I signed a very important paper yesterday. time for some champagne.
Champagne Larry, hurry up. Cali is waiting on you.
I don't mind giving away good/profitable ideas. 'cause think about it: if I gave you that idea, just imagine the ideas that I'm keeping for myself. (:
...plus, I'm used to people biting my style anyway. I'm pretty much a creative genius, so it comes with the territory, I guess.
-I.E.
I'm excited, & a little nervous. that's my favorite kind of feeling, though. always means something good is gonna happen.
can't wait to see the reactions i get. [:
“When we observe a woman who seems hostile and fiercely independent some of the time, but passive, dependent and feminine on other occasions, our reducing valve usually makes us choose between the two syndromes. We decide that one pattern is in the service of the other, or that both are in the service of a third motive. She must be a really castrating lady with a facade of passivity—or perhaps she is a warm, passive dependent woman with a surface defense of aggressiveness. But perhaps nature is bigger than our concepts and it is possible for the lady to be a hostile, fiercely independent, passive, dependent, feminine, aggressive, warm, castrating person all in one. Of course which of these she is at any particular moment would not be random or capricious—it would depend on who she is with, when, how, and much, much more. But each of these aspects of her self may be a quite genuine and real aspect of her total being.”
“Character, then, isn’t what we think it is or, rather, what we want it to be. It isn’t a stable, easily identifiable set of closely related traits, and it only seems that way because of a glitch in the way our brains are organized. Character is more like a bundle of habits and tendencies and interests, loosely bound together and dependent, at certain times, on circumstance and context.”
Lord, I thank you for peace. sometimes it's so hard to find.
tomorrow's a big day. I'm praying for your grace & favor, and I pray it goes the way I want it to, but really, I only want it if you want it for me. You've shown me that what's meant to happen will happen fluidly, seemingly effortlessly, & what's not meant for me will give resistance. I used to try to battle against the resistance, battle against You, but I'm tired, & I'm wiser now. why would I want what wasn't meant for me?
I've replaced my worry with prayer, my anxiety with peace, and I'm so excited to watch the day unfold. (:
bless Yiri and let her beautiful spirit shine bright. shine through her tomorrow, Lord. I pray this is meant for us. if not, thank You for Your protection.
Amen.
- I.E.
- Socrates
only planned on blogging once tonight, but this room is so quiet that it's impossible to sleep. I can hear every thought in my head. I can hear every click on my phone, & my phone is on silent.
thought I'd be used to my new spot in oakland by now, but... it's been 3 weeks and I'm still restless. and now I think I'm hearing things. I swear someone just tapped on the window. fuck man, I'm trippin.
- I.E.
I'm realizing that I'm the most comfortable when I'm uncomfortable. I need progression. I need change. I need new scenery, new experiences. there's so much world out here, ya know? & our minds are so extraordinary and expansive. there are so many things to fill it with.. so many things to see... so many things we can become. I'll never settle on knowing or being just one thing. & honestly, I don't think you should either.
- I.E.
“Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course we wouldn’t fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cites. People come into your life and people go. But it’s comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you’re very lucky, a plane ride away.”
so I'm back in Cali (for good) & my first stop was the Soundstage show. special thanks to Nu-Soul Magazine, Ill Society and Project LA for bringing me & Soulection out. had a great time, man... the vibes were on 10. here are a few pics from the night.
Cocohantas
posse full of hotties
marvel, stevi, ely, iman, cort, los (dang, we have cool names)
call me queen when i'm coming thru.
when i spotted a white nigga <3
yung marvel
i love this picture of my mom recording me. ((:
"there's nothing we can do but wait as calmly as we can 'til the misery comes to an end."
- Anne Frank
I sat and watched the clouds today. they were beautiful— pure, free & ever-evolving. they moved & shifted constantly, but somehow, they seemed to always stick together. the winds blew, but their bond was unbreakable. I got distracted with life & stopped staring at the sky & before I knew it, a lot of time went by. but by the time I looked back up, the clouds were scattered. they were like distant strangers, like soulmates that loved too hard. it was inevitable, though, because the winds blew too strong for too long, & although the original plan may have been togetherness, in the end, they must have realized it was easier to drift. everything about them— from their beauty to their destiny— reminded me of you.
au natural shoot with #SculptedFilms.
